Hello World!
Hope all is well, wishing you peace and blessings. I'd like to speak to you about experience, something you've been through and know about vs. something you see and hear about. Your perception of things about life in general, because there are so many points of views and ways to go, but where do those ways lead to in the end and is it worth it? It's one thing to hear about it, but another to actually see and go through it yourself to understand. Here's what I know, if you're alive today God is keeping you and you should thank Him right now just for that alone if nothing else no matter your situation, because His grace and mercy is upon you whether you believe it or not.
Quick example, everybody take a deep breath and hold it in as long as you can. How long were you able to hold it in before you finally had to release and breathe again? Holding it in you began to suffocate, get hot, turn colors and without air you'd eventually pass out or die. It's almost like drowning but news flash, God gave you breath and air to breathe. He is the air we breathe and we wouldn't be without Him. That was an experience of God just taking a deep breath and holding it in. You felt better once you released it, right? Why would God give you something he didn't want for you to have? He gave you life but there is one seeking to kill, steal and destroy your life, taking your breath away and that's Satan by lowering you into the game. I know most people and so called friends of mine may wonder why I made the switch to God, but it was because of experience. I've lost friends in the game to death, money, prison and drugs and that's the last thing I'd want for anybody, to parish in the game, lost in the sauce without knowing the Lord Jesus Christ.
Some will and some won't understand and I might lose friends because of the switch to God, but once I was arrested there was a switch. I went from on to off. There are some I used to hear from everyday in the world but now I'm not in the world. I haven't heard from them since my sentence to life in prison, because I'm no longer an asset to them out there in the game. In the game when it's good it's good and when it's bad it's bad, but it's when you're down and in trouble when you'll really see who your friends are because they will be there for you no matter what if they are true. The game is not meant to last and is only temporary. That's why the saying is get in and get out if you choose the game. Everybody's your friend when you're up and it's good but when it's bad and get ruff, reaching out they are nowhere to be found. Why is it like that? I didn't understand but I do now, the value of a true friend, I can only count on in one hand.
Friends, how many of us have them? I've realized now that they were only associates and the only true friend I have on my side is the Lord. This is a fact and I'm speaking from experience, the truth of the matter in my situation because the way things were I never would've thought that it'll be like this, which is a wake up call for me now at rock bottom. I can say I'm disappointed thinking we were better than that, but I'm not and can't be mad at them at all, because I know they're busy living life out there and understand life is not easy. At times I do feel forgot about in here like the others and like instead of living I'm just existing without a purpose because my life and the fun stopped the day I was put in those cuffs and taken to prison with a life sentence. I felt robbed of the chance of living my dream and providing for me and my family, completely helpless. I'm in a situation where no friends or anyone can get me out of but God and that's who my hope is in now because everything else failed. We can continue going in circles, nowhere fast, spinning our wheels and running into dead ends until we're tired.
Make a U turn in the right direction to get there and Jesus Christ is the way to go and what it's gonna eventually lead to in the end. It's sad but I'm glad to say it took me 40 years like Israel in Egypt of living before my mind was renewed and freed from bondage in the wilderness. You know the saying "If I knew then what I know now, things would be different." Well that's the case for a lot of us and it's said if you know better you'll do better. I admit I didn't know any better back then and it led me to all kinds of things and situations I regret in life, but you live and you learn. I know this is one experience I'll never forget. There are so many who've fell in the game with the fortune and fame and many who've fell chasing it. It's a shame and very sad to see in the end where it leads them. Question is do you want it to be you in prison with a life sentence, or dead 6 feet deep? This is a reason I turned to God, because besides my family no one else was there. I thank God for keeping them safe and protected this whole time which means a great deal to me because that's a prayer God was graceful and faithful enough to grant me doing this time.
Another reason is because of the experience of God myself and what He's brought me through in my testimony of My story/ His glory. But, the main reason I'm doing what I'm doing now is to get through to others before any of these things happen to them and to make my mother proud, since I've failed in doing so my own way. Turning to God and spreading the Word is the only thing I can do to make her happy while I'm in prison and I want to honor that to make her proud of me as well as our Heavenly Father. I don't wanna keep missing the mark because I'm older and can't dwell on the past boyhood dreams any longer. Play time for me is over and it's time now to start thinking as a man, the head and not the tail for me and my family. I can say the more I'm spending quiet time in the Word getting to know God, I'm becoming more distant from idle talk, old thinking, pride and the way of the world, seeing that it won't get you nowhere but into mess that'll stress and weigh you down. I'm not going to lie in the beginning having fun, getting money and partying seemed right, like the thing to do, and that was fun to me. The whole time though I wasn't thinking about God and thought God was boring cause I didn't see any fun in sitting, singing, holding hands and doing nothing but worshipping God. I didn't understand what I couldn't see. I felt like I had to stay busy, chasing my dream, doing everything else to gain friends, fortune and fame in the game and lost it all.
I'm sitting where I am now because of everything that comes with the game, jealousy, envy, strife, confusion and betrayal which lead to a dead end road and could've led me to death. But God had to sit me down and take me out of the game to wake me up. I've realized that He kept me and had another plan for me and my life. I couldn't see at first, but do now, that prison saved me from my own self, because if it wasn't for this experience, I'd still be lost chasing a lifestyle of sin that would be a hell of a price to pay in the end for my ignorance and disobedience toward God, knowing and unknowingly. I used to always see and hear people talk about God, their testimonies on how God has blessed them and even though I didn't really know Him, not having a relationship with God I wanted the blessings from Him like the others, but was going the wrong way to get it. Even when I didn't have nothing to do, I still wasn't thinking about turning to God because the worldly system was still in my system and the worldly system consisted of independence from God, depending on self in desperate measures and situations, keeping us totally distracted from our main source, the Lord and Savior Jesus Christ the way, the truth and the life.
Closing
(Psalm 34:8) Said, "Oh taste and see that the Lord is good." This is for all who haven't tried Him yet. Blessed is the man who trust in Him! I tried and tasted everything else, but it wasn't until I tried the Lord for myself to experience His goodness after all the bitterness in my life. I now understand the importance of still time and getting to know God vs. anything else and it's a refreshing moment after everything else went bad and spoiled on you in the game. I've broken down God and the game giving you reasons for the decision I've made to turn to God, plus I was chosen. So I encourage you to take heed and look up to the Lord for guidance because what the game got to offer is nothing but heartache and pain which is so not worth it in the end. I know the truth and my intentions but whether I get out of prison or not, it's God's will and His will will be done no matter what, one way or another. So, I'm praying for everyone and I'm also praying to have and keep my faith strong in the Lord, while in prison like the Apostle Paul, because I don't know what the future holds, but I know who holds the future.
So who do you choose to receive your gifts and blessings from Satan, the father of lies in the game or God, the Father of truth in heaven? Pick a side.
To God be the Glory! May God Bless you all! Peace!
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